Have you ever allowed a situation, or a person frustrate and anger you until you do or say something stupid? I wish I could say that just hasn’t happened to me, but it just did, and I can’t stop beating myself up over it.
Knowledge flows like spring water from the wise; fools are leaky faucets, dripping nonsense. Proverbs 15:2 (The Message)
I didn’t want to attend the meeting. I had already told myself I wasn’t going. We had been out of town all weekend and I just wanted to relax at home and not subject myself to the consistently frustrating, never accomplishing much of anything meeting. Late in the day, I received a phone call urging me to attend and alas, I was on the agenda to give an update on something.
Made it through nine-tenths of the meeting; we were on the final agenda item and then the wheels came off for me or maybe “off of” me. Instead of just biting my tongue and letting it go because it was not my place to say anything, I instead began a ridiculous line of questioning to someone in the room. Not only was it not the time or the place for my actions, I had also confused myself on who this person is and was asking questions that didn’t even apply to his role. Can anyone say, “foot in mouth syndrome?” Ugh.
The simple truth is I have allowed a situation in which I have no control over control my emotions as they pertain to the matter. I have failed to remain calm and poised and now I must deal with the embarrassment of being a leaky faucet dripping nonsense. I guess you might say I spewed nonsense.
Since I love to cook, guess I need to find a recipe for crow…
C. Deni Johnson
Right Hand Ministries 